Its nice to feel so comfortably numb, after a mental break down, a few pills and a hot bath i feel better now. I shouldnt take pills to help me relax but for now they do the job. I tried to scrub all my scars off my body, i scrubbed till my pores bled and my skin burned. I have no desire to feel anything anymore, pain pleasure, love or hate. I just wish i could close my eyes and fade into nothingness.